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It was just me and my little big man in the car. We were on our way to his dance training at Pak Ngah Studio but had to make a detour to pick up Kitreena who had a sleepover at a friend’s place.

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Edrick was very quiet despite the fast beat on the radio. So I decided to make a ‘move’ and cheer him up. I vigorously shook and wiggled my upper body to the beat… crazily. So crazy and silly that my shoulders looked like they were going to lose my head. My elbows and my arms flapped so fast, I swear I could fly if they flapped any faster.

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Edrick looked at me and gave his Mom that you-silly-mommy-what-are-you-doing look.

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Mommy: Edrick, do you think I’m crazy?Mother and Child

Edrick: A little. *no hesitation!*

Mommy: Do you still love me?

Edrick: Yeah.

Mommy: You don’t have a choice, do ya?

Edrick: I guess not.

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My crazy dance stopped and I laughed like a hyena. Edrick gave me a very honest answer so quickly as though he had had it playing in his mind every time I ‘go crazy’. An answer so honest that it made me proud!

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Edrick smiled, took a deep breath and said his usual ‘I love you Mom’ in his I-love-you-anyway-Mom tone. He was almost in tears when Kitreena got in the car.

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“Kaka, I missed you!”

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A Bend Done

I've got your back, baby..

Kitreena had a two-hour consultation with a Spine/Scoliosis Specialist today. The evaluation has been done and her case has been sent by Dr. Robertson to another group of specialists in London for a second opinion.

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Because of the 14-15 degrees curvature at the two points on Kitreena’s spine, the specialist here is suggesting the (soft, non-rigid) type of brace called Spinecor for her to wear for 20 hours per day, for 2 years. 

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In the meantime, she is to continue with the therapy sessions twice a week and the chiropractic adjustments once a week. Her progress will be reviewed quarterly.

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We will get her full prescription as early as Tuesday next week, August 26th (Daddy’s birthday). And if the brace is the way to go, Kitreena will start wearing Spinecor on August 29th.

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And I… I embrace this with all my might.

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Point of No Point

At some point in our life, we will all be battling something. Some of us will be battling it in the ward, some in court, and the rest of us… somewhere.

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Some of us will be battling against cancer or thyroid. A few of us will be battling it in nasty divorce when the love is gone. And the rest of us will be battling in and against depression, the loss of our loved ones or just weight, or just loneliness. Just?

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But the point is, at some point…
We will all be battling something in our life. Something. And at that point, we will all be tired of fighting and we will all be willing to just let go of so many things, including our will. Trust me. Winning will be a challenge and losing will look like an option.

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It is at that point in our life when we tend to forget to sit ourselves down to ask, “What is the point?” We will be busy battling that something in our life, we forget what we are fighting for. At the end of it all whether we win or lose, time will have left us.

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But for some reason, in the middle of writing this, somehow… all I want to do when the sun is up, is to go on a little boat on a lake somewhere with a little picnic basket, a blanket and a book.

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Yeah… a boat, a basket, a blanket and a book.

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So much for a battle.

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Bila kah...

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I’ve been to Point of No-Point, Vancouver Island.
It is one of the most beautiful places on earth.

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It was only my second scoop of rice at lunch. Late lunch. And I had hiccups. And Kitreena thought it was cute. Here I was, feeling a little too old to be cute. But I actually did feel cute. My hiccups made Monchies laugh at lunch.

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I blushed. And I got thinking. Maybe I should make a pie. A cutie pie.

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I'm gonna make a pie with a heart in the middle...

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Breathing In…

Moga ada syurga sewangi rambutmu…

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Bagai mencium olehku bau nya syurga...

He woke up early like usual and dragged his feet to my room. I patted on the empty space beside me motioning him to jump in bed with me. After another hour of good sleep-in, he opened his eyes, asked me if it was already August and started counting…

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Edrick: Mom, my next birthday is 3 months and 30 days away.

Mommy: Isn’t 30 days another month?

Edrick: Oops! Yeah. And don’t call me old man Mom.

*I just rolled my sleepy eyes.

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For I am the deep sea....

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According to Edrick, my bedroom is the ‘coolest’ room in our home. Yeah, my air-conditioner is working much better than all the Yorks in this unit. So here he was, in my cool room playing with his iPad but obviously busy thinking.

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Edrick: Mommy, can I ask you a question?

Mommy: Sure, Monch. Ask away.

Edrick: But it is not going to sound so good.

Mommy: Oh? Okay… try me.

Edrick: If you have two choices of who you’re going to date: one – with the man you loved before, and two – with a new guy… which one are you going to choose?

Mommy: Oh boy! This is tough. But where is this coming from?

Edrick: It’s just a question, Mom.

Mommy: Oh all right. Well… who is this man I loved before? You mean Daddy?

Edrick: Yeah, that man.

Mommy: But I thought we all know he’s not interested in me anymore?

Edrick: Yeah, but what if that man wants to  try again with you, Mom?

Mommy: Oh my, you don’t sound like an eight-year old, Edrick. This is tough for an adult like me.

Edrick: It’s just a question, Mom.

Mommy: I know. Okay, and who is this new guy that is to be my other choice?

Edrick: I don’t know, you tell me.

Mommy: Hmmmm… what do you think? Who would you recommend?

Edrick: I think you should go for choice number one.

Mommy: You mean with Daddy?

Edrick: Yeah, with that man.

Mommy: But he has somebody else now. You know it, and I know it.

Edrick: Okay Mom, go for some other guy then. Somebody totally new.

Mommy: What if I want to go out on a date with YOU?

Edrick: But I am only eight years old, Mom. And I’m your son. You don’t date your son!

Mommy: That’s why you don’t ask me this kind of question, my son. It’s complicated.

Edrick: Okay Mom. It’s really up to you.

Mommy: I know. But I don’t have time to bercinta.

Edrick: What’s bercinta?

Mommy: You have to learn Bahasa to know it.

Edrick: Awwwwwww pickle!

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He is on his way...

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